童年困惑：知识过早觉醒代价.pdfVIP

童年随之而去————木心

孩子的知识圈，应是该懂的懂，不该懂的不懂，这就形成了童年的。我的儿时，那

是该懂的不懂，不该懂的却懂了些，这就弄出许多至今也未必能的困惑来。

intellectualcommunityforchildshouldbeknownwhatheshouldanddoesnotknowwhathe

shouldnot.Thatisatrulyhappychildhood.Mychildhood,onthecontrary,IdidnotknowwhatI

shouldandknewwhatIshouldnot,henceIwasunabletosetmyselffreefromnumerous

bewildermentsuptonow.

不满十岁，我已知“寺”、“庙”、“院”、“殿”、“观”、“宫”、“庵”的分别。当我随着我母

亲和一大串姑妈舅妈姨妈上摩安山去做佛事时，山脚下的“玄坛殿”我没说什么。半山的“三

清观”也没说什么。将近山顶的“睡狮庵”我问了：

whenIwasakidunder5,Ialreadyknewthenuanceddifferenceweenseventapesof

Buddhisttemp:si,miao,yuan,dian,guan,gongandan.Followingwithmymotherandsquadsof

paternalandmaternalauntsthatyear,wecarriedoutthetasksoftheBuddhistonMountMo-An.

ThoughIhavepuzz,Ididn’tcominwhenwepassedatempleonthefootofthehillstitled

xuantandian,nordidIcameacrossanothernamedsanqingguan.Ifinallyquestionedwhenwe

reachedshuishianwherealmostnearthepeak,“isthisace?”

“yes,wearehere.”Saidaporterwhowascarryingourluggageontheshouldpole.

“dothenunshereperformtheritesforus?”Iaskedmymother.

“ohno,”shesaid,“theheadmonkhereisarespectablemaster,heisinchargeofeighty-two

temparoundhere”

Iwasevenmoreataloss,“then,howcanheliveinanunnery,aSleepingLionNunnery?”

Shewasalittletakenabackatfirst,thenexinedsoftly,“Well,perhapstheyjustmovedhere

fromsomewhereelse.”Thetempleewasin,butthemomentwesteppedin,thewholegroup

ofbuildingswastoweringrigorousandmagnificent:aftertheFirstMountainPasswastheSecond

MountainPass.Thentherest